This hammered me as few things could; I've seen the movie and did not recall either quote, but looking back online saw that these two quotes did indeed occur, the turmoil they have caused within my own heart is beyond description. These two brief sentences seemed to highlight a struggle I've had recently; on one part I recognize that nothing I can do can earn the grace God has given me in Christ, but how to answer the question that the older Ryan asks his wife? Dare I ask that of anyone, even myself?
I did serve in the military; both in the Navy as a nuclear-trained electrician mainly on board a ballistic missile submarine and in the Army Reserve as a field medic while going to school at UNC. My career as a nurse and paramedic were abbreviated by an egregious decision which led to my being incarcerated following my causing a patient’s death in ICU. To many (most it seems considering how I have remained unemployed since my release) that one decision erases all the ‘good’ that I've ever done. As I related this once to a friend, it seems the feeling among the vast majority of folks is “…once convicted, always condemned!”
So, how would I answer the question Ryan asked his wife? How would those who know me answer it? Dare I ask it?