I’m into the seventh week of the class, “Perspectives on the World Christian Movement” and to say that it has been messing with a lot of my preconceptions and ideas is putting it mildly. Previous to this course I was comfortable (or as I heard tonight, “settled” into complacency) in my walk with Christ. Now…
In many ways part of what is happening has to do with my priorities as well as what “I” want to do with what remains of my life. Kathy (my wife) is planning on retiring in a few months and while our income will be adequate for some of our plans (travel to Israel is one dream), a lot of what we’ve discussed seems selfish when looking at it with an eternal perspective. Damn it, I was happy just floating along as I had been previously. Now…
Before taking this class I ‘knew’ much of what was happening worldwide in missions and the need for missionaries to go as well as others to support them. Yeah, putting my share in the kitty at The Bridge Church was a part of all that, but the idea of my going somewhere seemed ludicrous and unnecessary. Who would want a nearly 70-year-old man with a capital felony record as a missionary? So, sitting in our comfortable home and doing odd things about the community seemed to be ‘my part’ in reaching the world for Christ. Now…
Every week God shows me new insights into what He has done and is now doing around the world and even here in Wilmington. Ideas of how I can help here and now seem to abound lately as well as my emotions being closer to the surface than ever before. My heart breaks for the homeless in the area as we prepared for yet another hurricane; how will they survive or what can be done to support them? I’d never really thought like that before (when Florence hit us last year, such thoughts never entered my mind). Now…
My life before this course has been wrapped up in computer games, occasional study in the Word (not much, actually), just the usual nonsense that kept my focus on me, myself and I (as much an unholy trinity if ever there was one!). I battled depression and often had no desire to do anything other than watch television, play computer games and just vegetate. I’d fooled myself into thinking that the chores, doing other ‘stuff’ could wait for tomorrow; that after all I’d been through, as the commercial once put it, “you deserve a break today.” My ‘break’ seemed to extend to one day, one week, one month after another. Now…
Speaking with Barbara Yandell tonight after class I did ask if there was a future or use for me as a missionary to the Muslims. What she said kind of rattled me; that with training God could use me here and now in the city of Wilmington reaching out to Muslim men who were suffering from PTSD from the experiences they’d suffered in their native lands that drove them to America. Me, speak to those whose culture was so antithetical to mine, who screamed, “Death to America!” on television and celebrated on 9/11. I could never do anything to such other than maybe a half-hearted prayer they be saved. Never would I actually reach out to them. It was never even a consideration. Now…
I’ve had several people through the years since my release from prison speak to how much I remind them of Joseph whose life is shared in Genesis 38 and following. Both of us spent time in prison, though in my case not because I was wrongly accused or convicted. No, other than some prison time, there is little to no comparison between Joseph and me.
During a praise and worship service at the Bridge Church tonight as God had begun working on me, it was all too apparent that in light of my recent walk with Christ, I was more like the person spoken of in the hymn, “Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing,” all to prone to wander. Time and again I have walked (jumped, run, fled) from that first love that so sustained me through many a dark time in prison. Why? Excuses are many, but no real reason other than wanting somehow to hold onto at least a part of the old Tony.
One particular failure on my part continues to rear its ugly head; lust. I’ve spoken with Pastor Chris about this and even have gone so far as to install “Covenant Eyes” on my computers and phone, but though I don’t look at porn anymore the ‘hook’ remains buried deeply in my heart. As long as I remain focused on the Word or have activities that keep me going, it isn’t a problem. But, as another person from Scripture found and whom is a far better comparison with me (at least in this one instance) is David.
“Then it happened, in the spring, at the time when kings go out to battle, that David sent Joab and his servants with him and all Israel, and they destroyed the sons of Ammon and besieged Rabbah. But David stayed at Jerusalem.”
2 Samuel 11:1 NASB (emphasis added)
Note that instead of going with Israel, leading his people into war as a king should, David remained in Jerusalem. No big deal, right?
“Now when evening came David arose from his bed and walked around on the roof of the king’s house, and from the roof he saw a woman bathing; and the woman was very beautiful in appearance. So David sent and inquired about the woman. And one said, ‘Is this not Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam, the wife of Uriah the Hittite?’”
Samuel 11:2,3 NASB (emphasis added)
Bad enough that David had skipped out on his duty as king to lead Israel into battle, but as the above verses indicate, he not only stayed in Jerusalem, he also lived an indolent lifestyle while his army and people were away at war. Getting up “…when evening came…” shows he must’ve been partying hardy the night before and was sleeping off the effects, or he was just being lazy. Surely there were duties he could have attended to, even if the army was gone and with it many of his officials. But no, David slept in and then just wandered out on the roof of the palace (no air-conditioning, so perhaps a means of escaping the heat that had. Built up within the palace by walking along the parapet outside to catch the evening breeze. Scripture doesn’t go into his thoughts before he espied Bathsheba, but I have to wonder if he was surveying his capital and perhaps taking the credit for all God had done to bring him to this point (much as Nebuchadnezzar did some years later).
Even if David was only out there to enjoy the air and perhaps composing a new worship song, once his eye just happened to pass over and see Bathsheba bathing on the roof of the home she shared with Uriah, all thoughts of praise to God disappeared! Even when his servants pointed out to him that she was one of faithful soldier’s wife, even then he summoned her to the palace.
For myself, idleness and the all-too-readily available pornography (or even the explosion of salacious material in ads or on television) led my heart from my King over and over. This is a war which continues to defy my most fervent prayers and the seed for this goes all the way back to when I was in third grade, living outside Virginia Beach, VA. Hilltop Manor was a nice neighborhood in which my Dad and Mom bought a home for us to live in while Dad was stationed at Oceana Naval Air Station and on the U.S.S. Forrestal, CVA-59. Lots of woods surrounded this development and many of us kids (including my two brothers and I) kept ourselves busy becoming all manner of heroes in our imaginations.
One day my Dad asked me to go to our next-door neighbor’s house to see if he was finished with a tool Dad had lent him. I rang their doorbell, and when his wife told me he was out in his tool shed off the carport, I ran out to that and when I noticed he was there stepped to the door. What met my eyes, much as David’s) was a panoply of what to this 8-year old boy, the most beautiful women in the world, all without clothes (or clothes artfully draped without covering anything). I am not sure how long I stood there mouth agape until the neighbor noticed me. He did manage to get me to tell him why I was there and handed me the tool to return to my Dad. Those images remain with me to this day, and the far too many that I’ve viewed since then.
“Covenant Eyes” is an excellent piece of software that has enabled me at least to not add to the images already in my brain. Sadly, however, when my own inactivity gives me opportunity, I too take a walk and find myself replaying those images. As with David and so many before and after him have discovered, eyes are indeed the window to the soul. For man, eyes seem to be able to bypass the roadblocks to sin that the Spirit can erect within our hearts. Successes in this battle do come, thankfully even with an increasing frequency, but it is a war that will continue until I leave this jar of clay.
I ask for your prayers for myself as well as for all the ‘David’s’ you know.
There are times when no matter how mature we think we are in our walk with Christ, words spoken that cause harm and grief to another happen and we are left to wonder from where such had come. Words that were not expressed in anger or overt discrimination, but did in hindsight, convey a message that is all too common in society throughout the history of the world where one culture or ethnicity considers another less than itself. Racism is an ugly word and one that has been bandied about recently for political gain by far too many; it is something that all who are human struggle against, yes even those in Christ.
Jonah was a man called as a prophet of God and that gives me hope. Why him, you may wonder? Pastor Swindoll of Insight for Living has been teaching through that book in the Old Testament and has not pulled any punches about this less than charming and likeable Jew. Jonah was a man who was called to go and preach a message to a people he HATED and he went in the reverse direction in direct disobedience of God’s command! God said to go East to Ninevah and Jonah went West, going down to Joppa to find a ship bound as far as he could get from there as he could get by going further West to Tarshish (modern day Spain). Finding himself such a ship, he goes on board and goes down into the hold and goes to sleep, figuring his troubles are over.
Jonah continues his downward spiral, finally landing within the belly of a great fish that God prepared for his racist prophet who stewed in this fishes juices (and his own) for three days before repenting. At this point the fish apparently had all of Jonah he could stomach and landed this racist prophet on the beach where he received the same command from God a second time. This time he obeyed…sort of. It was a message of destruction for his hated enemies after all; one he must have loved to deliver. So Jonah delivers the message then camps out to the east of the city to await the promised destruction…
You all know the story; from the king to the lowliest peasant a fear of the judgement of God leads to repentance and a turning away from the evil that characterized this people. Jonah was livid! The most successful evangelist and prophet in history and he was upset because although he had obeyed God, his heart just wasn’t in it. He still was a racist; he still hated the Ninevites.
What is the take away from a study of this book of the Old Testament? How are we to apply to our lives such a story? Thinking about this after listening to Pastor Swindoll and that “…still, small voice…” there are several things that come to mind:
We all must set a watch over our lips (as Scripture enjoins us), especially in these turbulent times. Offense, even when not intended, is difficult to overcome and impossible to forget. It will taint a relationship and can harm or destroy fellowship within a church community. Please, let our words bring healing and not hurt.
“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”
Philippians 4:8 ESV
As my brain s-l-o-w-l-y recovers from the trauma of the surgery of last week (as I write this, 1 week ago I was still in the OR and would be for several hours for the initial stage of the DBS surgery last [the 12th of February]), some tasks become easier. The Bridge Church, where Kathy and I worship, had listed a position, Pastor of Discipleship, and I was thinking of applying when the surgery intervened and pretty much shut down my ability to do much but mumble and shuffle. I knew my time was limited and had prayed about it and expressed my interest; the rest was up to the Great Physician and whether he knew this was a position for me for now.
Today, February 19th, I felt enough ‘connections’ had been made in my brain that I could proceed with the application and so had gathered (electronically) my resume, references and a letter of intent (painstakingly typed out and corrected) and had saved all to a file to download once I arrived at The Bridge Church. As I am still not able to drive, Kathy drove (she did not know about my preparations, only thought we were going to drop in to chat about the position.
We entered the office, and I asked about the feasibility of applying only to be told (very gently!) that because the applicant pool had been fill, the position was no longer listed.
Now I’ll be honest, I did feel disappointment. It was a lot of work for this dinged brain of mine to put all that together (especially on my phone!) but overriding that was a wash of RELIEF! I don’t know if I’m cut out to be a point man, but as I told Christina, I DO look forward to ‘holding the towel’ or helping in any fashion whomever the elders of The Bridge Church selects for this position. My prayers will be with them in the coming weeks as the process moves forward.
From the beginning of my walk with Christ, even while in prison, I have felt my place was in a supporting role, not necessarily in leadership. Over and over again this has been emphasized in a variety of ways, and this seems to have confirmed it. I love discipling others younger in the faith, but not as THE point man for the Community. My ‘thing’ in the parking lot (once I get over my Attilla the Hun act with help from my so-called Padawan Tyler[ a work in progress that perhaps the scrambling of brain cells will help?}) has helped me to really enjoy welcoming folks to The Bridge Church. In a small way, through this service, God enables me to be a bridge to The Bridge Church and no matter the weather I hope I can reflect His Light and Love to all even as I ask them to park somewhere else.
Servant; as my King washed the apostle's feet, can I do less? I love my calling as a doulos.
The journey continues…
Where do I fit?
Is there a place for me where the talents that God has given me can be of use to the local church as well as the community?
How do I discover where that place is?
I thought that with the position at Coastal Horizons, all the above had been answered. It seemed a perfect fit and I rejoiced that the opportunities for witnessing combined with serving a population that was often treated as modern-day lepers was a calling from heaven. My first few weeks were rough ones as my insecurity (am I the only one who is lost in the maze of acronyms and language everyone else uses so casually?) and fear had me almost pushing many (most?) of those there away from me. It was hard for me to trust anyone or to depend on what I was told; sadly, I began identifying with the clients more than my co-workers.
After several counseling sessions with supervisor staff over this, it seemed that my focus was shifting. One client however seemed rather adept at getting inside my head and managed to get me to do almost anything she wanted to the detriment of the other clients. Amazingly, I would justify it in different ways, but really there was no justifying it. The end result was that I was fired for cause and, at age 67, found myself unemployed with little to no prospects.
As with throwing away a career as a nurse and paramedic; having done the same with a possible career with Coastal Horizons, I really had no idea what to do or where to look. When The Bridge Church announced they were looking for a Pastor for Discipleship I did, for a time, think about that. Perhaps were I ten years younger that would be a possibility, but hopefully there may be something else I can do to help whoever is selected to fill that role?
At this point I just am not sure. With the surgery coming up and the uncertainty of that (yeah, having holes drilled in my skull isn’t something I am looking forward to, or wires threaded into my thalamus for that matter…wonder if I’ll be able to pick up any radio stations?). This specific procedure has been done hundreds of time with few incidents, but there is Mr. Murphy and his bloody Laws.
That is part of it, isn’t it? Perhaps this uncertainty is wondering if there will be a need to be concerned about needing to find something to do after February 12th…
As with this world and the craziness that seems to have taken control of it, the only real comfort I can find is that my King is still on His throne. Just so, whatever happens on February 12th (or any other day), I am his child and, as Moses put it so well;
“The eternal God is your dwelling place,
And underneath are the everlasting arms.”
The journey continues...
The last week or so has been 'interesting' to say the least, both from a spiritual and personal viewpoint (and sadly, despite walking with Christ since 1988, there are times when I do seem to want to keep the two paths separate!). The image shown is of two paths or roads diverging in a wood (much as my favorite poet in his poem, "The Road Not Taken" by Robert Frost. In this case, both from what has happened in the spiritual and 'physical' realm, both have seemed to converge and, with apologies to Mr. Frost, "...that has made all the difference."
The week long fast (from food, television, Facebook. I did post some things but did not peruse through at al. No electronic media of any kind other than that required by work...more on that in a bit; all of this combined to heighten my sense of God’s presence in my everyday (man, why not do this on a more regular basis Shook? Talk about an Urkel moment! It seemed easier this year than last, but also more challenging because of another battle that I was in danger of losing at work (and, in actuality, had already lost).
One of our clients there was rather adept at getting inside my head and maneuvering me to do favors for her; things that seemed innocent on the surface, but over time began to push further and further over the line between acceptable and unacceptable behavior. Honestly, it was a big ego lift for this 20-something lady to be hitting on me (even if in my own mind); looking back, it is terrifying to think of how far this could have gone. My surpervisor saw what was happening and warned me (twice!) and on the observed third time, I left them little choice but to terminate me as an employee.
Shame, regret and deep remorse for the loss of what could have been a witness for Christ in that dark place. Instead, I allowed the enemy to subvert me into a trap that is all too common in and out of Scripture. Time spent with Pastor Ethan and my wife began the healing; the Friday night of worship was a catharsis that continued the healing, particularly one song, “I AM a Child of the King” (emphasis intentional)!
Today, while sitting at the bar in Breakthrough Nutrition, an impulse hit me to share with a college student sitting next to me who works some part-time helping out Nick and Blair in the store. I had some cash in my wallet and just felt that she could use it for whatever; to see the expression on her face when I gave it to her let me know that I had ‘heard’ correctly. Leaving right after that, as I walked to the car I sort of remembered hearing the phrase about doing as much good as you can while you can. I could not remember the whole thing or where it came from, so I looked it up:
“Do all the good you can,
By all the means you can,
In all the ways you can,
In all the places you can,
At all the times you can,
To all the people you can,
As long as ever you can.”
This idea or compulsion is, pushing me now to do so with my time, talent, as well as finances. I’m not sure why NOW. It could be the looming surgery in February or something else that only God knows about (and I like it that way), but those words seem to me to fit with not only what Ethan has been sharing, but what God has been sharing since, “In the beginning…”
Let’s see what happens.
Driving home from the USO-NC Jacksonville, NC Center last night, I heard something on the radio that had me thinking. It seems that one of the actors (and singer, teen heart-throb) from The Partridge Family, was heard to say the following just before he died; “So much wasted time.” Sad that a man whose career was devoted to supposedly bringing laughter into others lives would end his own with such a sad insight.
It got me thinking into what others ‘last words’ were and how that reflected their lives before their deaths. Many of the comments are humorous, some sublime and others, as the above quote, a sad goodbye to this life. Some may believe that drawing any kind of conclusions from anyone’s ‘deathbed conversation’ is overblown. They would claim that it is nothing more than the random thoughts flitting through a dying brain; others, myself included, feel that often such comments can reveal not only a glimpse of that persons’ life but perhaps a glimpse of what is next after death. Many are recorded on various websites, but some that I’ve included here can point to how important these last testimonies are.
This is the last of earth! I am content.
~~ John Quincy Adams, US President, d. February 21, 1848
Waiting are they? Waiting are they? Well--let 'em wait.
In response to an attending doctor who attempted to comfort him by saying, "General, I fear the angels are waiting for you."
~~ Ethan Allen, American Revolutionary general, d. 1789
All my possessions for a moment of time.
~~ Elizabeth I, Queen of England, d. 1603
Codeine . . . bourbon.
~~ Tallulah Bankhead, actress, d. December 12, 1968
How were the receipts today at Madison Square Garden?
~~ P. T. Barnum, entrepreneur, d. 1891
I am ready to die for my Lord, that in my blood the Church may obtain liberty and peace.
~~ Thomas à Becket, Archbishop of Canterbury, d.1170
I should never have switched from Scotch to Martinis.
~~ Humphrey Bogart, actor, d. January 14, 1957
That was the best ice-cream soda I ever tasted.
~~ Lou Costello, comedian, d. March 3, 1959
Damn it . . . Don't you dare ask God to help me.
To her housekeeper, who had begun to pray aloud.
~~ Joan Crawford, actress, d. May 10, 1977
This by no means is a complete list, just some I parsed from several different websites including “Brain Candy,” “Mental Floss” and “Phrasefinder.” There are some notables I have left out, among them Jesus the Christ (in that case his last words on the cross were not his last words, for he is alive today having risen from the dead). Some that I have heard from other nurses (relating what they’d heard from a patient just as they died) are horrifyingly stark, giving a glimpse of life after death that is not all lollipops, rainbows, and butterflies. The saddest on the above list is that of Joan Crawford; apparently, someone in her hearing was praying and perhaps beseeching her to call out for God. To go into that long not-so-good night with those words on ones’ lips…
There are ample examples of those disciples of Christ who went to their King with joy; Tomas a’ Becket is such an example when faced with his assassins, gave testimony of not only a life well spent but an expectation of far better in the next life. As the two malefactors who were crucified at the same time as Jesus, the world is divided into two camps; those who continue to decry his claims and mock him even as they die, and those who had once been among the mockers, but embraced him as Lord and Savior. There is no middle ground, no great good deed that anyone can do that will assuage the penalty of being born a son or daughter of Adam. Anyone who doesn’t believe in the concept of original sin and the inherent depravity of mankind has never had children (or seen the wild tantrum of a child not getting what they wanted NOW).
The time of our death is not known; often there is no time for any ‘last words’ as death overtakes us. Better to live a life that reflects our values, particularly those of a disciple of Christ and let that be our last testament to the world.
When folks tell me that the God of the TANAK (Old Testament) and New Testament are different; one being vengeful and angry, the other loving and full of grace, I have to shake my head. They just don’t get it and my reading this morning shows clear proof that they are one and the same. Man’s fall and resultant expulsion from the Garden some may claim are clear indications of how vengeful God was ‘back then.’ They may say that didn’t God put that tree of the knowledge of good and evil in the Garden after all; why should God be surprised when man disobeyed the command not to eat of its’ fruit?
That Eve was deceived by the Accuser is clearly laid out in Scripture (Gen. 3:1-6); what is often overlooked is how Adam was present during this temptation and let it happen. True, Eve was not there when God commanded Adam not to eat of this particular tree (think of it, in a world full of ‘yes,’ the only one ‘no’ and they blew it!). Surely Adam instructed his wife of this single ‘no,’ but the Accuser is crafty and deceived Eve, so she took of its’ fruit and ate it. Then, Scripture tells us (Gen. 3:6), “…she took of the fruit and ate, and she also gave some to her husband who was with her, and he ate.” The innocence and joy of the Garden were gone in an instant, and they hid from each other and tried to hide from God. No longer unashamed (Gen. 2:25); with rebellion and sin, shame entered creation.
God enters the Garden looking for Adam, calling to him as a father to a wayward son. What follows (Gen. 3:10-13) is the first example of the blame game; fingers pointing outward without any confession of their own sin. This continues to this day and will do so until the end of this fallen world. Their attempt at covering their own shame (sewing fig leaves together to cover their nakedness) was ludicrous, just as any attempt on our part to pay for our own failures falls far short. God sacrifices creatures to provide for them proper covering (would an angry and vengeful God do this?), but then does something many don’t understand. He expels them from the Garden, never to return (Gen. 3:23,24)!
Just so, some would claim, this demonstrates his vengeful nature. But really it truly demonstrates the grace God shows throughout His-story. The triune God speaks a very real concern, “Behold, the man has become like one of us in knowing good and evil. Now, lest he reach out his hand and take also of the tree of life and eat, and live forever…” (Gen. 3:22) Adam and Eve (and all their progeny) were cursed with eventual death rather than living forever in a Garden of bliss. This is the peak of grace; imagine if they had remained in the Garden and had eaten of the fruit that would give them everlasting life. Shame, fear, doubt; all the ‘fruit’ of the fall would remain forever. Death for the human race is a gracious gift from a loving God that ends a life of suffering and temptation, allowing them to enter into an eternity of everlasting joy.
Again, this so-called ‘angry, vengeful God of the Old Testament demonstrates further grace by providing a path, a Way to that true life. By the sacrifice of the animals that provided them with clothing, God showed them that blood was required. This would lead to the sacrificial system laid down in Exodus and Leviticus, but all points to that Son whose heel would be bruised, but who would forever crush the power and threat of the Accuser. About two thousand years ago, an itinerant preacher and miracle worker was arrested and endured several mock trials (in violation of the Torah). He would then be handed over to a lily-livered Roman official who would condemn him to be crucified, even knowing he was innocent. That was that they all thought.
Jesus is risen; just as he said! He has left this planet but will return. The madness and evil that seem to run rampant over the Earth leave us with little hope. By God’s grace, the story is not over. When Jesus cried, “It is finished!” (John 19:30), it was not a piteous cry of defeat, but a shout of victory! The debt had been paid; the Way was now open to all who believe to receive true life forever.
You expect me to believe that a man who had been brutally tortured, nailed to two pieces of wood, either suffocated or bled to death and then had a Roman spear jammed into his chest to ensure he was dead, that this same guy is alive?
You’re telling me that this same person when taken down from the cross was boneless without any sign of life, then laid in a borrowed tomb that was sealed and protected by Roman soldiers, that this same person is gone from the tomb? You’re telling me that he is alive?
What kind of fool would believe that kind of nonsense?!?
Just because you have a bunch of his spineless followers (they did bail on him, right?), that they were suddenly bold proclaimers of this fella being alive and well; you want me to believe them as well?
Yeah, yeah; they were willing to suffer horrific deaths themselves just for believing in him, but that isn’t any kind of proof that he is alive, is it? You really expect me to believe that?
Yeah, I heard how one of the most prolific persecutors of his disciples suddenly began telling others that this guy Jesus is alive, that he is a King? That Saul turned from a successful career as one of the ruling council in Jerusalem to walk the then known world proclaiming this nonsense; is that proof of anything other than one man’s delusion?
Come on, really? What kind of fool do you take me for anyway?
Who would be foolish enough to believe such nonsense!?!
Whose fool do you take me for?
Have you ever had a day that seemed to drag on and on? One that you wished would end, but were terrified of what would happen, what would change when it did? Have you ever just wanted to curl up in a ball and, as the old country song put it, “Make the World Go Away?”
By now all of the apostles and the women who had followed Jesus would have gathered together in that same room where the Passover had been celebrated. No celebration now, only a mind-numbing emptiness as they struggled to understand the inexplicable.
How could he die?
Was this all there was after all those years of ministry and learning? The promise of what seemed a heralding of a new kingdom was now ashes and dust. How were they to go on? When would the same religious zealots who had taken their beloved teacher come for them?
Fear, darkness, hopelessness…
We look back on these huddled, shivering men and women in the light of what we know from Scripture and just shake our heads. Where is there faith? How could they have missed the warnings Jesus gave them, but also the promise of his resurrection?
Are we then so very different?
Whenever tragedy strikes our family when things don’t go according to what we thought they should, do we keep our eyes focused on God’s promises that are all yes and Amen in Messiah?
Life, this life we live will be filled with days similar to that one Saturday.
Hopelessness, despair, grief will flood our souls and leave us bereft of any joy. We far too often are ignorant of how God is working as he was on that Saturday; we close our eyes to his possible and cling to our impossible. We embrace our misery as if a friend when our true friend stands waiting with arms open wide.
It’s Saturday, but Sunday is coming…