
So, what to do? The tremors were interfering with handwriting as well as typing (word-processing?) with the result that I all but stopped blogging. Additionally, much of my morning devotions and Bible study diminished greatly because I was mostly unable to work the computer based study software. I knew that God wanted me to study (big duh) and meditate on his Word, even continue to blog, but the tremors continued to make it all but impossible. As the days became weeks and months, I noticed that I was always tired and would take frequent naps each day despite having slept for 8 to 12 hours at night! It puzzled me why this was happening until one night while driving home from the USO-NC Jacksonville Center where I volunteer, I ‘happened’ to listen to the Good News Network station on Harker’s Island, specifically to a ministry called Know The Truth led by Pastor Phillip De Courcy. The lesson this particular night came from Jonah 1 and something Pastor De Courcy said was like a Gibb’s slap to the back of my head (if you don’t watch NCIS you won’t understand the reference). He said that this snoring prophet was exhausted enough to sleep through a storm because he was running from God’s will for him. I remember ‘speaking’ to God along the lines of, “Okay, that’s why I’m tired because I’ve stopped blogging and studying, but I held up my shaking hands to the ceiling as if to show God why I’d stopped.

So, is the struggle with tremors now over? No, not really. They are much less noticeable now than before, and I continue sans medication. Interestingly enough, once I made this decision, my energy level returned to normal enabling me to awaken early each morning to spend time alone with my King and his Word even if I’d stayed up late the previous night. As with other areas of my life, the tremors are a reminder of my weakness and dependence on God. It is not the meds or anything other than God’s sovereignty over every aspect of my life that will enable me to honor him each day in all I say and do.
The journey continues…